Feeling Like I do not Belong

Have you ever continued through years of your life feeling like your

not in the right place even though you were born there? How about

in your marriage after 40 years or your family after 63 years?

Feeling truly unwanted, uncared for and intolerated seems to be the

normal in some people. No matter how often you are included in the

happenings of the day a deep down core level voice says ' they

include you because they have to as you are family, a blood

relative.'

Does every interest you have seem out of place in the house where

you dwell? Are your beliefs beyond the grasp of others or lesser in

their expressed ways? How often do you feel overcome with grief

because unwelcome seems stamped on the doors even in your own

family.

What does God feel in me? Is it the same for Him or am I sensing

how I act towards Him? Do God and I have enough in common to

get along well in our relationship? What is it Lord? Why is this not

going away after forever.

According to your Word, the Holy Bible we are not permanent here

on earth and we do cohabit with ones not of the same mindset. We

are just passing through into eternity not looking at this world as

our home after all. Is this thought so deeply embedded in us that

we cannot feel content even with our fleshly brothers and sisters.

Is that why we find friends that mean more to us than our own kin?

Is that how come we enjoy like minded people? Temporary versus

eternal and permanent. The head is not the tail nor the eye the ear.

We need to always search for another the same. We need to feel

connected, close, clonish. A soulmate , a kindred spirit, one heart,

one mind, one body.

Is that what You want God? To be one with me and I with You? Let

it be dear Lord, let it be. Cause me to be molded into You, to be a

part of Yourself , to be interested in the same things and people

that You are into. Help me to fit into You and adopt Your ways.

Make me over anew and baptize me into loving others as You do.

Your love appreciates variety and enjoys differences, colors, shapes,

sizes, textures, sounds. What an incredible feeling that must be.

Adoption can be very uncomfortable and hard to live in. Is that why

You comfort us Holy Spirit? We need to feel a part of God and His

family before we can function as one with all. All for one and one

for all sounds great and must feel wondrous.